Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Tell Me Aboutneuropathy

Merlin; bigbangitalia; (I wanna be) The very best like no one ever was

Title: (I Want to Be) The Very Best Like No One Ever Was
Author: [info] chibi_saru11
Fandom: Merlin
Beta: No, I could not ask for a poor, pious soul betarmi of this thing.
Characters: Arthur Pendragon, Merlin, Morgana, Gwen, Lancelot, Uther Pendragon, Gaius, Nimueh, Sophia, Morgarouse - and any number of characters.
pairings: Arthur / Merlin, Lancelot / Gwen, Morgana / Gwen (One-Sided) Past Arthur / Sophia and Uhter / Ygraine; Hints Morgana / Morgarouse and Uther / Nimueh and Nimueh / Ygraine
Rating: PG15
Warnings: Slash , Pokemon! AU
I would add that history is not betata, for reasons of length I could not ask someone to betarmela seriously, so I ask forgiveness in advance.
Word: 105,307 (FiDiP u a) no, there is a 0 in most
Summary: Arthur wants to be the best Pokémon trainer in the world. Merlin's really just wants to save his neck - and is not as easy as it sounds. But then Merlin also has its fair share of problems with magical powers, the legendary Pokémon, criminal organizations and fate - which is apparently very bad, almost as Morgana, and from which one can not escape (but it says a voice inside the head of Merlin, so it's not exactly reliable).
Notes: see special post. Written for
[info] bigbangitalia
Disclaimer: Merlin (BBC) is not mine, just for nothing, I do not know who he is but I do not care enough to continue to hand, here. Pokémon, then, much less or I would not be here but in my hyper-galactic villa in Hawaii - mica are cracked - so yes, do not come asking for money.
Art: [info] aredblush [to see pictures go to notes ]

( Arthur had taken his first Pokemon in 6 years, Merlin still remember perfectly - and was taking a big word because there was no middle pokeball - Growlithe that Arthur had simply decided to follow him wherever he went, even if, in fact, that he had saved the situation was he, Merlin, as usual. ) @ AO3 (Archive of Our Own)

Monday, November 29, 2010

Butterfly Baby Sayings

...

Saturday was devastating.
Perhaps the tears to drink. No, I'm serious.
Sunday is even worse, but I can not stop having interaction with humans. We should be under the callus.

ignorant. I had in mind a beautiful and intelligent post on the philosophical musings and stories of my Near Invisible, who was here to talk until three in the morning yesterday. But I still have too much sleep and a home unpresentable to make a living, and an excuse to get on this morning because I had not at school.



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Sunday, November 28, 2010

What Is The Most Reliable Computer Brand

[Full Metal Alchemist] Finding Neverland


Fanmix realizzato per La materia dei sogni , fic su FMA di [info] naripolpetta partecipante al [info] bigbangitalia .




CHRISTMAS (BABY PLEASE COME HOME) - Death Cab for Cutie

I remember when you were here
and all the fun we had last year
pretty lights on the tree
I'm watching them shine
you should be here with me
baby please come home



'Hello brother, I hope not to have you woke up. Tomorrow I'm in town, breakfast from Pret? Baci, Ed '

[...] He does not see Edward for months, since he decided to pack up and travel to take notes on the world, according to her. It's actually been over a year, but at that moment seems not to see him with Alphonse only yesterday. They exchanged a lot of mail during his absence: Edward was in Australia, Japan, America and all those wonderful places that he has only ever dreamed of, where he knows when he can go. [...] Wherever he was, with anyone, Edward has always managed to find room for his brother.




STRAWBERRY SWING - Coldplay

They Were sitting, They Were sitting
in the strawberry swing
Every Moment Was So Precious
cold, cold water, what you say
when it's Such, it's Such A Perfect Day
it's Such A Perfect Day


"Hey, I'll not be mica missed so much!"
"No," he snorts, and the nose will continue to move on his shoulder to soak up the smell, to undertake not to whine. "Is just a cool dog and I need human heat."
He laughs and sits down and tells him the place in front of her.
[...]
After all, it's nice to see that has not changed, it makes him feel comfortable. Alphonse can stay home and wait for freedom, can watch the stars and think that is where her brother at that time there is the sun, and time goes on, of course, but Edward is always the same. The
heartened.




This Is Home - Switchfoot

And now after all my searching After all my questions


I'm gonna call it home I got a brand new mindset I can finally see the
sunset
I'm gonna call it home this is home



When the door creaks, a shiver runs through the back. It is as if it were invaded by a thousand different feelings, covering it in layers. Feel the fizz on the skin of the beautiful things, but slipped up to his heart fade into something less colorful, too serious to be endured. [...]
"Welcome back."
"Thanks, Mom."
The house is full of wonderful sensations, and he will eat it because they can not do without. Coming home is the medicine against all bad after all. And perhaps, not only that.




In Passing - Indicates

Little sister
playing hide and seek
if you miss me, sneak a peek at my diary
or read the peek-a-boo That lights the night sky I'll say this
oz
light up the night, stardust



makes him happy, to see the laugh in his arms, show them the stars out of the sky, talk about constellations, wagons take you away. It feels a bit 'like himself, with his own desire to do, to indulge in time and at the same time denying it.
kisses his lips, as they did as children and their mother are softened.
"You know it's late?"
"No, come on, I will not sleep ...
"[...] When you turn immediately dives between her legs, moans for cuddling and asks for her bedtime story.




Kensington Gardens - Patty Pravo

Peter fly away with his hands
you were born a man and now no longer want
in Kensington Gardens in a child's eternal
you, Peter, you that live in Kensington
oh, you, Peter, you who still plays in Kensington
sounds so



"Sometimes I want to stay here forever."
[...] The bench where I sit is cool uncomfortable, but it is always the one where they were resting when they were kids chasing after playing all afternoon, and now that seems to have grown so much closer. Al can feel the shoulder And rub against her, but when a child was almost hard to touch.
"Here in London?"
"Here in Kensington. It looks like a landscape painting, sometimes I get the impression that it is not even real. "Expects To laugh, to tell him to turn to new places has made him a little 'bad, but when you see him nodding his heart is enlarged, and you feel peaceful.




Norther Downpour - Panic at the disco

The ink is running Toward the page
it's chasin 'off the days
look back at Both feet and That winding knee
I missed your skin When You Were east you clicked your heels and
Wished for me
hey moon, please forget to fall down



The room is full of him. His suitcase on the floor, his clothes a bit 'all over the world, with the strap resting on the table by cherry. There are pages in there, often fleeing in search of someone to take away.

[...] 'I do not want to grow. I do not want to lose the touch of your hand secure on my head, though I am the greatest and mother always says that I must look after you at all times. I do not want to get away from it. I want to be with you, as we are now. Do not remove your hand from my head. Stay with me '.




Crazier - Taylor Swift

I was Trying to fly But I could not find
wings
But You Came Along

and you changed everything you lift my feet off the ground
you spin me around you make me
Crazier, Crazier



Under their feet there sleeps London, London and its lights, and the poor in London who share the bread in the evening. In the distance, Big Ben takes an hour can not understand, the sound is almost sweet, melodious. Maybe because Edward takes him by the hand.
"Ed?"
"Yes?"
Look up the sky that fades from purple to pink. "What's your happy thought?"
"But that question." Smiles the brightest star, and that the answers even more glaring. "You."
And then fly away in the wind. The air smells of bread and croissants with cream, the pastry chef greets them by waving his hand away. Nana barks, but does not see his house, just a bunch of roofs that are becoming increasingly blurred away.




Forbidden Colours - Sarah Brightman

I'll go walking in circles while
Doubting the very ground Beneath me
Trying to show unquestioning faith in everything
Learning to cope with feelings in me
Aroused my hands in the soil,
buried inside of myself My love wears forbidden colors



There is something wrong with his brain, something in his mind takes the form of a sentence and in the heart of something without which there can live. The only reason he has stood up to that time without him is that he has been away for so long.
eye does not see, heart does not hurt.
is lost beyond the trees, over the distant horizon. There are things that a human being can do on this Earth. You can not kill, you can not steal, can not be betrayed. You can not love his brother.
You can not love his brother.




DREAMS - Cranberries


Oh my life, is changing everyday
in Every possible way
and oh my dreams, it's never quite as It Seems
never quite as It Seems
And now I tell Openly you
You Have My Heart I know do not hurt me



you feel stupid, because it would tell him in the face, urlarglielo against, and instead freezes when she hears the words formed on the tip of your tongue, remain poised for fall and break in the ears of his brother. The fire crackles and burns the eyes, and again sees everything blurred.

[...] "I wish there was Peter Pan indeed, it would take us away and no longer grow. But I know that you can not, eh? "
you feel when you untie the hands of Ed's pinching his cheeks, before slipping on her hips. Rests her head on his shoulder and let go, because it has so many feelings in the heart that really begin to weigh too much.
"We remain children forever." And the voice of Ed snakes in his head, took possession of the heart and brain.




The Neverland ' - Edoardo Bennato

Second star to the right that is the way


and then straight up in the morning then
the way you find it
brings you to Never Land



'Trust me, because I'll be your time and your thoughts, shake your heart in my hands, I will be everywhere. The miles that separate us I do not fear, we will be stronger. The Island that there does not exist, it is written in his name. But I can be your island is not there. Inside of me You can hide and heal, wait for better times. And I will always love you '. [...] Would

wake, soon it's dinner time, but it's a sight so beautiful that you feel guilty. And then leaves him there on his lap, to recall the forces, to dream places even more distant stars that shine in a pastel sky. [...] It is yet another of countless days. Stroking his head, he knows that will last forever.





DOWNLOAD (cover / booklet + songs + lyrics) : Mediafire not even comment. Thanks to those who gave us this first episode (making us fear that there will not be a second). Thanks to those who have looked at. Thanks to those who have followed.
But thanks to those who were there to watch it with me.





el_defe





Italy at then. Italy at the people involved to do anything else, with the blinders of titanium and no desire, no decency, no brain, nothing. Italy at worst, Italy at which I am ashamed, Italy at that much good is personified by the clown we have chosen as Premier - Italy at that stifles that Italy, which, however, eccotela: you are presented in RaiTre evening, in a program that leaves you with a sweetness and bitterness that I forgive, the flight of fancy, only De André Foscolo and were able to give so fully. Come away with me so inevitably leaves you: undone by tears, emotion, with a great desire to do. With a great desire to say that Fazio, who Benigni, who Nichi Vendola, which Finocchiaro, which Saviano - who Saviano, above all, Saviano, who Saviano, who Saviano. With a great desire to say, well, that Giorgio Gaber. What Falcone. What Falcone. What Falcone. Mazzini, who Pisacane, Sandro Pertini. That Enzo Biagi. Dante Alighieri. What the hell do we end? [info] waferkya




In the name of all the martyrs of the holy Italian cause fallen under the blows of tyranny, foreign and domestic, for the duties which bind me to the land where God has placed me and to others that I have data for 'love, innate in every man, to the places where my mother was born and where my children will live, for the hatred, innate in every man, evil, usurpation, injustice, arbitrariness, for the blush that I feel, in the face to citizens of other nations of failing to name or rights of a citizen, nor the flag of a nation or country, for the thrill of my soul, created to liberty and impotent to exercise it, the activity of the asset created and powerless to do so in silence and isolation of servitude to the memory of power, the conscience of this degradation, the tears of Italian mothers for their children dead on stage, in prisons, in exile, I ... committed believer in the mission from God to Italy, and the duty that every man, born Italian, has to contribute to its performance, convinced that God has chosen to be the nation where there are the forces necessary to create it, the people shall be the depository of those forces , in which direct them to the people and the people is the secret of victory, convinced that virtue lies in action and sacrifice that the union is strength and constancy of will, give my name to Young Italy, an association men believers in the same faith, I swear to devote myself to everything and always be with them in Italy a nation, independent, free and republican. [info] Giuseppe Mazzini, cited by
ary_true


Having a night like this, the PC with the TV on and twitter at hand, and you remember that "oh, but there ' Saviano is tonight, and then put it on RAI-3. And you realize that somewhere in this lousy country - seen as full of garbage, not only in the form of bags and waste - there are those who still makes out of the jar. And you happen Benigni trending topic worldwide. Saviano And listen to talk of Falcone and oath the republic. Daniele Silvestri that starts with Gaber. The lists of Fabio Fazio. the other side was the GF. Almost sorry, do not know what you missed. [info]
anybeaver




Fairy tales do not teach children that dragons exist. Children already know dragons exist. Fairy tales teach children that dragons can be defeated. Gilbert Keith Chesterton [info] , cited by Roberto Benigni When a man meets a man with the gun with the pen, the man with the gun is a dead man.

Roberto Benigni

- They say it's best to look at beautiful girls being gay. - It 's better to be happy.

Fabio Fazio and

Nichi Vendola
I stand here because I'm Italian.

Roberto Saviano

... then do not, one thing I want to say too. When I was a little girl, little girl of nine or ten years that my deepest political thought was' but if the Communists say that we are all equal and Jesus says we are all equal, because the Communists and Jesus do not get along? ' * Hugs diecianni! Tenderness * dying of self, I loved the Risorgimento. I loved him a love of all children, of course, I loved him as I loved Sailor Moon against the kingdom of darkness because the trend was the same, because the patriots who fought against the Austrians were the good guys and they were so cool and in the end they had won, but I loved him. When I was in elementary school I was still examining the fifth, and my fifth oral history of the topic I chose was the second war of independence, and then there are facts and names and places I have been Printed in mind by knowing how to recite as a chant, Mazzini, Garibaldi, Cavour, Ricasoli Rattazzi D'Azeglio, Montebello, Palestro, Magenta San Martino Solferino. I've always had a soft spot for that part there, the middle part, before Garibaldi and Fourth and Theano, who knows why. And I was nice Cavour, Mazzini, perhaps even more, because it was an intellectual asshole and I loved them even then intellectual assholes (although the proportions of today would like to find more sympathetic Fini Di Pietro).

But I digress.

In recent months it has been much talk about the unification of Italy. We been found everywhere on the news, in official ceremonies, at football matches, in the mouths of a lot of people including our President, I mean that of the Republic, which is a little man that I can not not have sympathy. Still nothing. No revival of childish love, no flicker of emotion pride, no, my EEG Love of country has remained flat as a sole. And it is one thing that made me sad and angry because the ideal should be an ideal regardless, you should feel your
regardless, and people and places and events that led us to the unit are always the same. But no.
Then last night I heard Saviano, and I knew where that was the problem. The problem is that, "said Saint-Exupéry (cited again last night Blob, among other things), you can not feel the desire to build a boat in front of you if someone tells you to chop wood. The desire to build the boat you feel when someone wakes up in the nostalgia of the sea. And not because the wood does not serve, the wood is vital, but where a person who tells you only think about chopping wood and wood gives the impression that he had completely forgotten how beautiful the sea, not only will you pass the desire to build a boat, but end up how beautiful the sea you forget it, too.

The Journal's editorial today that says Sallusti '
citizens and credible political leaders seek solutions. [

...] With a writer, comedians and dancers will also laugh, but do not meet any real need.
'Dice short, it takes the wood, and this is not discussed. But the part where he proves to be deliberately and blatantly ignoring the point is that of laughter. Last night it was not to laugh, to laugh at us enough to our Prime Minister, his court of vassals and whores, its smallness and meanness as a man and a politician. Benigni was not used mica to laugh at him, the world

already ride him for months. This was not laughing, it was to remind us of the sea. Maybe we our boat we have not even started building it, because we are terribly flawed, squabbling, disunited, scassacazzi, needlessly hypocritical extremists on one side and the other unnecessarily. But there are so many projects, so many ideas, so much ferment in the streets and in universities and in blogs and in the minds and hearts. But last night was as if there is a wide open expanse of endless water, a sea so beautiful and wonderful that the boat that floated inside we all imagined, and it was so nice and big too, and so powerful

, powerful as justice when it is true, as powerful as a pen in front of a gun. Powerful to the point that I have the impression that all the people who would prevent her from sailing if only to imagine it being done below.

But an impression is not confirmed, so I figured if I believe it. * Laughs *

Saturday, November 27, 2010

How To Roll A Nekerchief

Supernatural; Bigbangitalia; Running Up That Hill

Title: Running Up That Hill
Author: [info] chibi_saru11
Beta: [info] renrenren3
Fandom:
Supernatural Characters: Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Ruby 0.1, Bobby, Lilith
Pairing: Wincest, Dean / Ruby Mild Dean / Lilith - in short DEAN IS A WHORE .
Rating: NC-17
WordCount: 14,527 (FiDiP u a)
Warnings: Slash, Incest, Demons - which as you all know logically are dead kind - they give us inside 8D Post S! 3 S! 4, 5 and 6 are not never happened.
Summary: Sam manages to bring Dean back from hell, four months later. Dean, however, does not remember anything and is now a demon. Sam does not want to let go anyway. Lilith has not even going to let Sam steals his toy, though.
Note: See special post. Written for
[info] bigbangitalia C = it deserves so much pimpaggio love and fantasy (for the next edition, of course, But still ...)
Disclaimer: Supernatural is not mine and although it is joked that Kripke and I share the same brain is sadly not true. So if you are not mine and Jensen would be a lot more time shirtless.
Art: [info] karrina87 that is good and we all love and we love it so?

( chains they cut the skin, tighten and hot. The blood is flowing on fresh wounds, and every movement, every blink is like dying again. But Dean still remember everything, remember who he is and remembers having to wait, it will not be forever. This is important. ) @ [info] spieluhrs (link to fic masterpost of which is divided into 3 parts).

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Volleyball Sayings With Candy

BBC!Sherlock; Sherlock/John; Sherlock Holmes and the Surprise Party

Title: Sherlock Holmes And The Surprise Party (That Actually Is not That surprising).
Author: [info] chibi_saru11
Beta: A- Betated
Fandom: Sherlock (BBC)
Character: Sherlock Holmes, John Watson
Paringa: John / Sherlock
Rating: PG
Warning: whut? IDK. MADNESS? - Slash, Crack
Words: 1139 (FiDiP u a)
Summary: Sherlock has a problem, Google may have the solution. Perhaps Wikipedia, but Sherlock has never had a good relationship with Wikipedia.
Notes:
1. Boh. Do not know. I wanted to write something fluffoso that celebrates John Sherlock is a DORK but absurd and out is not exactly as he would like. E 'release this ... Image of also being a little dork * I * facepalm
Disclaimer: Sherlock BBC is owned by anyone (Moffat, BBC, whatever), I write just because I'm sick. And why Martin Freeman is too adorable to be true.

( Sherlock had a problem, a problem not easy to solve, above. ) @ [info] spieluhrs

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Billiards Slogan What Is A Good Billiard Slogan?

VieniViaColFandom; Baratro @ Bingo_italia; Faviano; Filo Sottile

Title: thin
Author: [info] chibi_saru11
Beta: None * 3 *
Fandom: RPS VieniViaColFandom, VieniFandom, VV (CM) F, vieniviaconme
Characters: Fabio Fazio, Roberto Saviano
Pairing: Faviano (or full, or whatever you call it XDDD)
Rating: PG13
Warning: Slash, RPS, did you read the characters, right?
Words: 506 FiDiP u to
Community: Written for Chasm @ [info] bingo_italia [ +]
Summary: He was uncertainty where Roberto was firmness.
Notes:
1. fanfiction I dedicate this to my t-list to be the wonderful thing it is and why without them the vision of vieniviaconme would be a little less perfect and beautiful as it is.
2. Emobbasta, but want more?

( You know it's wrong, but does not know what to do, do not even know if he wants to do something, to tell the truth. ) @ [info] spieluhrs (but Locke must then join the comm to see it)

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Milena Velba And Friend

A story almost true, but certainly love

Two very special people.
B.


Dear Readers,
following is an example of "urban legend" here in this collection by the author during the compilation of the book "Urban legends collected in the most prestigious universities in the world."
The story has been excluded from the volume-edited for the publisher Broccolandia-why did not contain any animal, real or fantastic, or any alien.
However, due to its popularity, it seemed a shame not tell yet once and is in the form in which I was repeatedly passed down the story to you.
Every political reference is purely coincidental-or rather, I would say that everyone there is, exceed augusta art of literary criticism, is also intended that all names are fictitious and any similarity to things, people or events is purely coincidental.
And besides, only fools and children may believe that such beautiful love stories are real.

Your cordial Author
prof. Illustrious Rufus Ilario d'Agaliv
***


Tel Aviv, March 2008


"You get at least a tie, please?"
"Why," he protested, adding to his lips mo 'to pout , as was usual when something's not coming back.
"It's a formal occasion, it seems to me the least ... but after all, are not you the one who spends his Saturday afternoons to read Vogue?" I teased Adam, as usual. "You're the expert on fashion."
ten seconds after he realized he had made a gaffe of epochal dimensions. He turned to me with an accomplished.
"Precisely for this reason: the tie is not a thing of fashion. It is not my style. In short, if I took is because I maximum votes in all, certainly not the way I dress. And if I want to have to come to terms with the fact that I am not ever dress like an old upper-class in Jerusalem. "He muttered, frowning.
"Thanks for having offended three times in one sentence!" Yelled at him, stung. "Sometimes the reasons with the same patterns of a boy of fourteen!"
Adam had learned to recognize the premabolo a furious quarrel. If Ananiah answered him, then he knew to be safe, they would peck a bit 'and it would soon be over in a flash in the pan, when the other was holed up in a sullen silence that was feared. And as usual
Adam fall for it like an idiot.
"Well, you should put some 'flexibility in your life hell! I'll say this for your own good, the world is not always black and white and you, being a lawyer, you should be the first to realize it! "Shouted, while he continued undaunted to adjust the mesh in front of the mirror. "And do not pretend not to hear me! So I know very well that you're listening, you are not deaf! "Is mad. "I would like to know why you refuse to have a normal dialogue! You are frustrating! I have more dialogue with the wall with you! "
Ananiah spun around, glanced at him murderess and then came out from their room, slamming the door.
"And this seems a civil dialogue! Bel mediator bell'avvocato pacifist who you are, if you can not even hold a conversation with your boyfriend! " yelled at him behind his lungs, thinking only to vent his anger, regardless of the possible reaction of the other.
was aware that whatever he said, he would not have responded. He heard the door close behind him and said nothing.


Left alone with his thoughts, the anger faded quickly, as always. He finished preparing his things, his tie knotted green light and took the bag is ready for a new workday.
He walked along the boardwalk, enjoying the sun not too hot and the breeze that was blowing from the sea, smiling to himself and himself.
climbs on the hill, chanting his silent prayer lay the ruins of the Arab village that stood on the modern university.
"Hello, Adam!" The secretary greeted him with a smile. "Professor Cohen has not yet arrived this morning, seem to have good news in the Faculty." She smiled kindly, shaking her curls blacks. Good news was just what was required by the day, as the morning discussion was certainly not helped his mood. Not that it's of particular concern: in almost four years of relationship and coexistence of three had used their quarrel. And almost always for petty reasons.
"Hello, darling!" Myriam greeted him, kissing him on both cheeks and invading it with his scent to the rose.
"Hello, dear. We are early risers today? "
" I had some things to attend to the professor. And I certainly could not miss today. "She whispered with a sly smile." Ananiah How are you? Today was the first day of training, right? "
" Oh, yeah. This morning was intractable. "
" I guess it has been quite a while ' excited, in fact it does not happen to all be taken at the first attempt of the State Agency. But he decided to really test the inclusion in this year? "
" It seems so. "He said, shrugging. There was only one sure thing with Ananiah, where he plans to do something is mathematically impossible to make him change his mind.
"And when would the exam?"
"At the end of June." He said.
"My God, poor thing! And where is the time to study? "
" He practically studying at night and in his spare time, but I have no doubt that exceed it brilliantly. "
" I do not think that it is possible to have doubts about Mr. First Class. "she jokes." It is not doubt the most brilliant graduates that come out of law school in the last ten years. And probably one of the best heads of the university. "Adam could not help but smile to himself, pleased once again. He knew very well that was clever ... Ananiah case was not her boyfriend.
"I see that here we do everything except work! "by prof., laughing. Her cheeks were pink and brighter than ever in his sleeve sticking out a sly smile.
"Then we can make the big announcement?" Myriam said.
"I would say so." Proclaimed him go in front of Adam leaving a sealed envelope.
"What? A pregnancy test? "He asked. "In any case .. it was not me!" He said.
"Open it." They invited him. His hands trembled when the envelope took out the letterhead of the University of Cambridge. He looked around, his head was spinning.
"Congratulations, little British."

"Shalom, Ahevi." So Adam greeted his companion, beaming. He could not help it, never knew hide his emotions, no one had ever bothered to learn, finding something highly unproductive. He did not answer the salute, merely becoming aware of his presence with a nod of the head, evidently had not yet passed.
Adam touched his lips with a kiss.
"How was your day?" He asked, trying to take the initiative towards normality, sitting on the couch.
"Well, well. Very productive, tiring. "And with these two adjectives to Nani the conversation was already ended.
"Sit down two seconds." He said, indicating the place beside him.
"I must study." He said, without crossing his eyes. "Fifty pages I was back on the program." Adam had to make an effort not to scream again when he turned Ananiah, with the intention of taking refuge in the room. He got up and joined him.
"I need to talk." He said, parandosi front. Ananiah froze and waited until he opened his mouth, looking a bit 'annoyed.
"I have got to Cambridge, love." He announced quickly, the words jumbled emotion. Stared, then gave him a passionate kiss.
"I never had doubts. You deserve it. "Ananiah whispered softly, holding strong.

Cambridge, December 2008

Valentina Ananiah met by chance one afternoon in a fall at the events of the Peace Society, which the Committee shall serve in that year.
had always felt a special attraction for those quiet ones if they are in the dark corner of the party and do not have the will or the ruthlessness to jump into a new environment, perhaps it was because ex-timid, as is believed, he felt a particular empathy.
Thus, isnomma, a twist of the case, who knew Ananiah. Another
his habit was to be a pretty passionate person and stubborn, and if anyone liked the skin was very difficult trying to get into that in relationship, even when presented with obstacles.
And with the Israeli obstacles undoubtedly were, his shyness was disarming to any person trying to get close and prevented him from ever making the first move.
Ananiah simply did not speak, could not speak because he thought he had nothing interesting to say, did not speak because he was still convinced that his voice would have been unheard.
Valentina had to thank his musical taste rather peculiar that opened a hole in the wall of silence, when, in the midst of a monologue, they discovered that the same worship band and began to listen to some songs his i-pod.
Thus Ananiah told her to come to Tel Aviv, was a lawyer and wanted to work for some NGO to be there only temporarily to accompany his partner.
talked at length about politics, as their two countries, Italy and Israel are alike.
"Sometimes it's a little 'frustrating." He said, looking at the tips of his sneakers. "Think you are always there to make events, to fight to change things and this stupid war that is straining to end .. But then you go to vote and it is disheartening know that at the end represent only 3% of the population and we have two seats in parliament. "
" I am extra-parliamentary "smiled the girl, joking and he glanced lost, venendole a bit 'more ; close. "But I think we must have hope .. somewhere a change will also begin, no?"
"It's nice to know they're not the only idealist in the world." He gave a half smile, the first of the evening. "You know Adam, my friend, would go well together."
"My girlfriend, however, is still in Italy." Confessed her bitterly.
And when the end of the event he asked her mobile number, Valentina was not too surprised.
"We could go to the film club of the Society sometimes, if you like." Propose. "On Wednesday, projecting political documentaries very interesting discussions and good ideas."
"I'd love to." She blushed, before disappearing down the road.

knew Adam a few weeks later and it was a shock to platonic love, as if he had found his brother in exile.
Because this was their condition, a golden exile.
Adam found himself in the same will and the same AENT that she had the same swing between the desire for a better future, away from their origins-and the will to fight against a world that is wrong.
not matter what language they spoke, the idealism of youth was the figure that distinguished them.
took the habit to meet all three to dinner once every two weeks at the home of Valerie, but soon she and Adam began to share with the lunch break, taking advantage of the proximity of their departments.
was through the comparison was born the idea of involving the couple in the work of the Peace Society.
"We decided to organize a week of events on the Israeli-Palestinian Conflict," wrote one evening Valentina Nani. "It would be important if you want to participate. We also involved the Palestinian Society and they seem to be enthusiastic about the project. The first meeting is tomorrow, would you like to come? And tell Adam also, of course. "
The meeting turned out colorful assembly. There were people from all over the world. Raul, the president of the Palestinian Society, was keeping the bank from among its members, charming all with his eyes magnetic, Josh, a blond American face covered in freckles typed furiously on the computer keyboard the minutes of the meeting, while the kippah to jump on the fuchsia hair, Fatima, her head wrapped in a cream-colored veil, spoke gently about how Valerie would could create a gallery of drawings and memories on that land. In
traits such diverse, English accents and the most unusual in the diversity that distinguished them as individual human beings, you could find something that deeply united them.
They were young people from countries in decline, who had made the painful choice to leave their homes. For studio work, for a basic right: that to live a normal life.
If I could look into their eyes you could see maybe a spark that burned at the bottom of the iris away and smelling of courage and nostalgia.


"I am a bit 'worried about Nani." He confessed to Adam Valentina a winter day, while trying to swallow the food in the canteen.
"Why?" He asked. "It's a couple of weeks that the film club is no longer with me, but he said he had to do."
"In reality not to do anything. Spends his days attached to the computer and it is not good. Is suffering a long distance from home. And with the current climate, I fear it will get worse. It makes me angry ... so should not waste his time and talent. It is a brilliant guy, has lots of resources "were keen" because it is unable to realize anything? "
" Maybe ... maybe you should try talking to him. "Adam laughed convulsively.
"Talking? A profound dialogue with him is a myth. He never speaks of himself, always leaves me guessing ... and frankly I do not always have the strength or the will to do it. "His voice took on a harsh tone. "Sometimes it's a losing battle ... is that I do not understand. That is, I also care about what happens, but I do not a disease. And then after all we are far, fortunately. "
" Do you think it a fortune? "She asked softly.
"Yes. You can see things more clearly when you're away. Eventually home to Tel Aviv, so you feel your breath on my neck you do not want nothing but escape. You create an artificial peace, with the hedonism and fun, just because you know you'll never live the true peace. The war will never end, because it is too much bigger than us and no power to end it takes and how each of us is able to bind because things change, every effort is pointless. And it is also our very existence to endanger the peace. "He saw a tear in his eyes appear at the bottom.
"What do you mean?"
"I mean ... in the end we are the sons of Forty, the children of this war and our very existence for feeding. Take me, for example. I was born in a village built on the ruins of an Arab village. What should I do to be consistent with my choices of peace? And so it is the other side. The wounds are so deep and serious remaining in the DNA of families and in the seeds of the earth. "
" Seeing it means you have no hope. "
" I do not have, even if I try to deceive me and continue trying. But since the only possible alternative would be my annihilation, I chose to go away and to abstract myself from the system of war, at least in part. "
Stay for long minutes in silence, pondering the weight of words.
"However, one evening why not come to dinner? Not yet never came to our house and we'd love to. Nani, then, is an excellent cook. "

" Hello, darling! "Nani said goodbye hug. He was pale, his embrace of despair said, resting her forehead on her shoulder.
"Welcome!" Received the Adam, a big hug. "Right on time, as always." Valerie blushed.
"Nani spent the afternoon in the kitchen, let's go dinner before it cools. "He went to the table, placing a hand on her back.
"I hope you like it." Nani spoke softly as ever, but its expression was opaque. Valerie and Adam conversed as usual films, projects, studies, but we tried to avoid politics.
"I wash the dishes and then eat the cake." Adam suggested, beginning to clear the table. "Nani, why do not you see the last video you did? Believe me, Valentina, deserves it. "
" Ok. "He assented, with an inviting gesture on the couch and taking the laptop. The browser was still open on some blogs for information.
"We are at war. Again. "He said, his voice thin, almost without articulating words. Valentina hugged him tight.
"But you're here. You are here, you're safe. "She whispered softly.
"And for that I will never forgive me." And he said, sinking into his chest and began to tremble.
"Nani, you can not do anything." Whispered in his ear.
"If all we did so, nothing could ever change." He considered He bitterly, playing with the watch strap.

Cambridge, April 2009
"I'm leaving. Whether you like it or not, I'm leaving. "He said. At that moment, in the middle dellénnesima lite, Adam was unable to scream, just began to cry.
"Nani, you know I will not be easy ... you know that will mean throwing away everything we've built so far. Four years, damn it! Four years. "I grabbed him by the arm, so a bit 'hard.
"I know." She muttered. "But here I die there."
"It's a mistake. Here you could build something, if only you will decide. It got me. "
" It is not enough. Not what I want. "
" You do not know really what I want. "Nani looked at him poison, without replying to that challenge his bitter, leaving the room. Adam felt a tremendous anger and tried with all his strength not to give him ... but then you need to keep the anger inside? And inevitably ended up arguing for the umpteenth time.
"Love ..." He tried to call him later, while was already in bed for half an hour. He could guess from his breath he was not sleeping, but remained with his eyes closed. I touched his cheek, looking for a contact. I heard him loud sigh, then took the pillow and got up to go to sleep on the couch.
"I do not need you." She whispered, leaving the room.

"I thought you were coming either tonight." Valentina commented, somewhat surprised that Nani was not there with him.
was then that Adam seemed to see clearly for the first time.

realized that she was committing the same mistake that all our friends used to do, consider us as one.
How is that nobody - or almost nobody, we considered as two independent people? I think it was a problem of terminology: I lost count of the last time - outside a strictly academic environment, I used the personal pronoun singular ; We had supplanted the ego in all its-our? - conversations.
Actually I had never considered this aspect as a possible symptom of something wrong, in fact, I always thought it was positive.
But perhaps not, perhaps it is when we began to blur, when we began to think that two was one that everything started to go wrong.
Why not work like that, because it is never a coexistence of two souls, never attained a balance in this way.
will always and only one party to prevail over the other, to embrace each other or groped to digest it.
But this can not work, because when the other party will be strong enough to ialzre the head, even a little, just to dstrazione, well then the only thing that can happen is a disaster.
I always thought I accommodating part, the party strong and rational, so that with less destructive force.
But in war there is the least deadly of the other, because your game is still in existence.
You can kill in a more subtle, more apparently clean, but the essence of the destructive force does not change.
And lose, always, are the ideals, feelings and good intentions, innocent victims of this evil they call human nature.
At the time I did not have the strength to really understand it, because you always learn after they have committed errors, I felt only a sense of emptiness and frustration growing inside me with something that I would never have admitted, a great anger.

Adam kept turning the spoon in his tea, slamming against the edges of the cup. The projection was over at least half an hour and all the others had left the room. How were always used to do, Valentina had prepared the tea for both.
It was not uncommon for all three tirassero until a talk after yet another documentary.
That evening, however, the room was dingy atmosphere, as if all the color had fled. Hanging on the wall, the only viable exception was the flag of peace - a white sheet, where the colors were not willing to strip, but handprints.
Adam had not noticed the first time I had been there, but Ananiah had drawn his attention on that; object which had excited so much.
Adam thought that thing craftsmanship reminiscent of a smiling companion.
"Is there something wrong?" She asked, looking like a willow a bit 'sad hung over a misty lake.
"No." Because there was really nothing wrong .. there is nothing worse than getting used that things are not going to be convinced that this is the only way forward. "Simply, Nani did not want to come, that's all. It is an obligation we do the same things. "Realized, reflecting the echo of his own words, which probably had been unnecessarily sour.
"I was convinced that organizing a screening of the documentary was something that interested him as well. It does not matter .. I can offer you a slice of cake? "As Valentina cut the soft dough with a fork, just breathing in the scent of apples and sugar, began to tremble, to think of all those nights when his companion had set automatically - But it was likely to Nani for him was not something automatic, a white plate with a slice of cake, different each time, but always soft and smell good neatly-arranged, with a sprinkling of powdered sugar and a little fruit and every time that little gesture, but I was intent on computer or absorbed in reading his books had always seemed insignificant, indeed almost had given him trouble, like a cuteness scontatata and unnecessary.
was then that for the first time he touched the brink of the abyss into which he and his partner were falling, and from which there was probably a safe return.
least not together. Valentina
the next breath, let alone, trying not to look, but every now and then overseeing the corner of the eye. Adam loved the silence transparent
the friend, who really knows the sweetness of loving, free.
"the last things not as they should go." He began his lips. "Not that anything has changed is that ... do not know. Maybe I'm just tired and I'm saying things that make no sense. "
" I'm listening. "Smiled the young and at that time, his smile crooked teeth seemed to Adam a beautiful moonlight.
"Sometimes ... Sometimes it's as if I knew him enough. Four Years Together and still not talking, he hides. And for me, the word is everything. "
" For every human communication is important. "
" Yeah. And he is the antithesis of communication, not talking. He does not talk at all, but since this is not the worst. It is not speaking to me and it is difficult to reach a compromise, I can not guess what his needs or wants. You move blindly. "
" I think it's something you can work with. I also have great communication problems and it takes me a long time to be able to get a feeling. "
"Yeah, ok .. four years ... but, damn it! Four fucking years, four or fifty, nothing ever changes. And I assure you that it becomes frustrating. And then this setting to return "home." house, as if it really meant something. He's wrong. "Valentina made an odd, but did not respond to his jokes." It is wrong, he is damn wrong. And I can not afford to mess up our relationship to it. "
" How can you be sure that I'm wrong? "
'Cause I know I will certainly be the case. I know him and I know that before figuring out who is wrong, it takes a long time and maybe you can not go back. "Replied bitterly. "Sometimes I really was not so childish, but it's a losing battle." He said with resignation. "Sometimes I wonder why there is still insisting so much, after so long."
"insisting to do what?"
"Sometimes I think we had better take a long time before a final settlement. Or at least before you came here ... so this will never lead to anything good and stable, which is what I seek. "
" You're saying something very sad. And I am convinced that you did not think through. "
" I do not know. It's just that sometimes I think they lost any hope .. I think that situation has not come out ever, and that whatever he does, however, will not produce a result. "

" Something wrong, honey? "Asked Ananiah to Valentina, noticing his expression less sparkling afternoon in a sleepy English.
"Everything ok ... ok. I just had a fight with my girlfriend, but will soon. "He admitted, lowering his eyes to the ground.
"These things happen, you should then make a big case. It happens all the time for stupid things. "
" Yeah. I bet that in a bit 'is the past ... There will probably more to me to pass. "
'Well ... I'm already seven in the evening and not many hours to go to sleep and tomorrow we start again. New sun, new day. "
" I can not sleep after we fight. "
" But if you know it's a small thing and perhaps unnecessary pain, night lava. "She whispered, looking at the darkening sky. Valentina sapvea that no one would get more nor a word of explanation, and then remained silent, almost holding my breath and tried to imagine.
imagine that night that changes shape, which produces dreams. The night pen and crayon.
And then, finally, that washes away the stains. The night that washes everything.
"It's in the evenings like these that are missing home. I miss her, I wish it was next to sio, I stringesse strong. Scent of roses and moisturizer, as beautiful as a dream, beautiful as always. "
" What is aA things home for you? "
"It is the place where the soul finds rest. In his arms. "
" I have a house either. "Valentina was rocked by a bitter chill, that was certainly not a phrase from someone who certainly could not be said to be alone in the world.
"Home is a place where someone always comes back. But no one ever comes back to me. "Said air lost.
"You're wrong. He is always returned so far. And I'm sure will continue to come back. "
" He came, he conquered. And yes, maybe it's true that always come back to me, but often scares me. At the end is a bit 'as stifling. "
" Choke? "
" If you break your home at the end of the choke, continues to inflict unnecessary frills that are not their own, with a ugly cards wallpaper .. I'm tired. I'm not good at telling metaphors. "
" I found it very fascinating. "She admitted, trying to smile.
"You are one talented in telling stories. You tell me how it ends this metaphor. "
" The metaphor ends that always comes back to someone you love too much, though not always at the right time or the correct sentence. Why you should go back to a place that does not belong? "
" Right. But we also love dies. "He concluded.

"No, not if it does more than anything!"
"What?"
"We have no more desire to participate in your project." He got a chorus of voices, during what should have been the final meeting for the organization of events.
"Why," asked Adam, banging the points on the table. "Well, the last Once the discussion had been very positive. "
" It is unacceptable, we can not think of learning to do things, to stand here and talk while these murderers massacred our brothers. "Sentences Raul, his voice hoarse and eyes lit up.
"Assassins? Assassins? But if we are here, does not seem that we are with a machine gun in his hand. "Adam jumped up, his voice rising.
"You might not, but maybe your brother or cousin. In any case, our society does not want more with you in real nothing to do. All this makes no sense. "
"If we withdraw support as an organization." Valentina, you can always try to propose idividui participate as individuals. "
" If someone wants to do, is free to do so. "Raul replied with an ambiguous look .
"Fatima, tui continue to organize the event with me, right? The last time was going very well ... and we also found the funds to do it. "
" I do not feel, Valentina, the others are right. It would be hypocritical of me. "She said, averting his eyes.
"Ma. But all the wasted effort ... "Nani put a hand on the shoulder of Valentina, making her gently away.
"Forget it. Pass big trouble if it continues to cooperate. "The whispered.
"We should resign as well?" Lamented Valentina.
"We have no choice?" Nani asked, lowering his voice.



A couple of days later, opened the Valentina mail every night as returning to the room, removed the junk and was attracted by a message of Dwarves without an object.
"Hello, Valentina,
I very much regret not having healthy, but sometimes you just follow your instincts.
'll be fine.
XoX. "
reread several times, coming to the screen, until the eyes begin to burn with the effort. Only then was the readiness to call Adam.
"Worth." He replied, with apparent control in a colorless tone.
"What happened?" She cried into the microphone, no longer able to control their emotions.
"He's gone ... "the sentence was broken in half waiting for a conclusion.
"He's gone where?"
"It's coming home."
"What? And because neither of you told me nothing? "Was angry, felt betrayed.
"I do not know." Adam let go of that truth heavy sigh.
"What do you mean I did not know?" She screamed.
"I found out ten minutes ago when I got home ... and he did not There was ... was gone. He left me an email, I guess he has a delivery to you. "
" Do you want to come to you? "
" No. "He sighed, before bursting into tears." Indeed yes, Come. "
Valentina burned within minutes the distance between them and appeared in the doorway, calmer, but without feeling ready to give more comfort than that of those who share the same shock.
"Do not ask for an explanation ... I suppose I should have guessed." He told him, sniffling, trying not to cry and which does not cross the tears came down her cheeks. It sederono on the couch, close to one another.
"I wrote" I love you "at the bottom of mail. But I'm not sure what I should do with this declaration. "
" Words have meaning. "She whispered, trying to find the energy to smile. It was not she who had the right to let go of pain.
"I'm much more convinced ... but I have not the strength to be angry ... I feel helpless."
Valentina wanted to find words to comfort a friend or just to break the silence of acid that night, but it was as if the same had imposessata impotence also her victim in a minor key of the same loss.

As often happens, slowly the days continued to move forward, becoming a bit 'less opaque. Finally
like every season, the summer came, the sun, who comforts the hearts darkest. After the failure of the project, the society's activities were limited only to the projection of some documentary, but the energy and vitality that had inspired those early winter evenings never returned.
But not everything was lost.
The friendship between Valerie and Adam went consolidated, as the first two survivors of the same adventure, then slowly discovering that in addition to this we had the pleasure of being together.
And with them, smiling slowly in the mail that were becoming longer, Nani looked away from their friendship and somehow was part of a distance, informing them with energy to what he was doing at home.
"You know, we have found an apartment." Adam announced to Valentina, a beautiful afternoon in late May. He smiled, as she had not seen him smile for some time and the red shirt seemed to reflect the passion that you relied on the performance of voice.
"We who?"
"Me and Nani. He sent me pictures, it's a nice place. There are jobs to be done is true, but we're thinking. And it's nice to think that this summer we will have our place, to decorate as we want. "
" It's a wonderful news. "She smiled warmly and it was as if all the anguish of those days will be dissolved in the air lukewarm.

"You could bring this to Nani, when you get home?" Valentina Adam reached out to a envelope of yellow paper. They had already exchanged a thousand little things in those days before the return home of both, as to want to extend or postpone the time of separation that would have been this time, no return.
"What is it?" Said Adam, taking the crumpled envelope. "I can open," he asked, noting that the container was not sealed.
"Sure." He was not hard to lift a flap of the envelope. The colorful flag that had adorned the walls of society, slipped his hands.
"But it will not serve the society for the next year?" Adam asked, suspiciously.
"The flag is mine and my job is finished. A Nani liked me so much and happy to know that the land you. "Whispered shaking his hand.
"You're sweet." He whispered, with tears in his eyes.
"So maybe sometimes you will think of me."
"How can you think that we forget?" He said.

Tel Aviv, July 2009
"It's hot!" Adam complained for the hundredth time, wiping a trickle of sweat from his forehead.
"It the hundredth time that you complain, this will not change the fact that yes, it is summer, yes, it makes a hot dog and we can not turn the air conditioning, at least until we finish the work here. "He said Ananiah, irritated, without even stopping to look at his face.
Despite the heat, Dwarves continued to paint the wall, spreading the color to large brush strokes, striving on his toes when he could not properly get to where he wanted.
"Well, what are you doing standing there? Watch the paint dries after a while '. "Muttered against his companion, splashing bright green stains on the wall.
Adam noticed only then that Nani had the same color as his shirt, just too large, so make it look even thinner and definitely more sensual.
"Work! I'm not kidding! "Nani protested, without looking at him. Adam was struck by a something, a moment of irrationality and child put his hand into the bucket of blue paint he was using to paint the wall-he was sure-will result in a quagmire.
"What are you doing?" Nani asked him when he left the Adam's Improta blue of his hand on her back.
"I do not know, but it seems nice." Finally, the other turned around. Adam was ready to support the look of black and silence when Nani is raging and was already regretting that he let go.
Against such odds, the Dwarfs splashed with the paint brush, green drops fell on his blue jeans, like little bursts of grass.
smiled mischievously. "You're right, it's cute. We could really make the wall so, sketches and prints. A wall does not need so many schemes. "
prensa Adam's hand and at that moment he was sure that the wall would remain so until the next sunrise.

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I have not forgotten about you, f-list!
It 's true, I'm late with the comments and I have no idea what's going on by the parties to lj lately. I'm lost, with excruciating pain, believe me, because the Nano, in order: Lucca, trip to Turin, upcoming examination of language, mixed fried checks, sometimes the need to prove my existence to my father despite the hole in which he lives lost, as much need to prove alive despite the adorable boy with big eyes he is not just a neighbor , hold off my perennial inferiority complex, and not least the attempt to finish the story for the BigBang with a delay not too outrageous.
Here is the album of Lucca, with some of the many beautiful photos taken during three days.
hug those who are able to meet, and who have not caught ... I regret immensely, I was disorganized, and especially the rain made the movement almost impossible that Monday is Sunday. Ah, for the record, in case you began to believe a sane person after so many posts on the RL, on Monday I was in sandals. Saturday: Aphrodite of Pisces in civilian clothes mafia. Sunday: Misa's Death Note, with a wonderful group, a dream came true three years after the first time I watched the anime. Sunday: Buddha Shaka of the Virgin without armor. But with the rosary that I had bought two years ago in China, for reasons unfathomable knew smoked. And I bought a hat.
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Thursday, November 11, 2010

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[Original] Petals of Asphalt-4. Do not be price.

Dear Dario,
sorry if I've neglected for a while ', but I really had a month ... heavy. I did not think I could ever use this adjective to describe my life, but it is.
might as well tell you now the important news.
First I turned sixteen and I spent the school year with high marks, as always. I did not want to go to see the pictures, so I already knew.
And then ... are no longer a virgin. Although, being a male, I do not know if it can be said.
Do you remember the girl you spoke, Marisa? She is a lesbian. And it's a good thing because finally I have someone who tells me emotions similar to those that I feel. And it is a reassuring presence, in some ways more of Alessandra, although she obviously I want more good because it came first.

Marisa all'Arcigay took me with him and I was involved in a painting course, once they knew that I could draw. And then I discovered that she and her group of friends like to go clubbing. So the day after the end of the school we went dancing in Tirrenia. I had always wanted to go, but I had no one who could accompany me. I thought my
would not allow me to go, they have not done stories. My mother has only recommended to be good.
I enjoyed immensely, was the pop music that appeals to me and I was stunned enough to not have to oblige to speak.
I met a boy, it looked bigger than me, but I was more effeminate. He was also a bit 'of eye makeup. He began to feel the muscles, to scrutinize my size, to ask mischievously whether the "rule of the height" was really true. I lied, but I strut, I pretended to be sailed. I told him I was nineteen years old, I do not know if I should have thought.
Luckily Marisa gave me condoms. We went into the pine forest behind
the room, which was full of people who do something in the shadows. I was a bit 'scared because I thought that would put me under, but no: it is leaning against a tree and was knocked off his pants.
At that moment I just hoped to get it right for anxiety. But in the end it was easy, in fact, was something I wanted for a long ... and then gave me a great feeling of power. I decide how and how much, I have control ... and this makes me feel strong. It excites me feel strong.
Fortunately, the type did not ask me to kiss him because I could not have done.
I did not want to tell anyone anything of what happened, but at some point Marisa took me to one side. It is as if I had read in his eyes, told me he was happy for me and we go out dancing more often.

Then ... I hate the holidays. Literally, especially the summer, I put forward. Why holiday with my sister is home from school, I'm home from school, but our parents still work. So I have to spend so much time with Maria. It can not stand it.
usually our parents have always sent a couple of weeks together somewhere in England or France, to learn languages. And it's always been hell. Marianna
able to approach people, is too friendly, then it becomes obsessive and not the spring more and if someone gets tired of her and try to avoid it, was hurt, it becomes a bad mood.
Who should contain his temper?
I, as always. To avoid that mess happen, as in his school a few months ago. And then, when our parents are not there, I should be aware that taking the medicines at the same time I can provide them not because mom says that my sister has to develop his "autonomy".
fact is that as soon as school ends, I begin to have headaches and I just feel like stabbing of hanging himself to paint and listen to music or in the pool. Marianna
But obviously can not leave me alone. He speaks to me. I scream. And the screams in my head are amplified as, like many small needles of ice. I feel like banging your head against the wall because I'm even worse and makes me sick and pass me the urge to eat. And to get out.
So ends that, when our parents come home at night, is a continuous fight because I would like to see happy, because they do not understand and say they are selfish. That all we are doing at the bottom of sacrifices, but it seems that in the end, just me being asked to do the impossible.
Understand? You just can not do that. I can not. Sometimes I just want to run away.
Luckily Marisa dragging me out from time to time and we go out dancing on Friday night in Tirrenia ... me until the grant.
My mother has mentioned the possibility I could bring Marianna with me, but I have opposed screaming, I said I rather stay at home too. I think it surprised with my reaction because he has not touched the topic. The only
hours of peace is when Marianne goes by her psychiatrist and gymnastics. Because everything else - the floor, for example - it does at home.

Sometimes I feel guilty, I feel bad. I know I'm a disappointment to my parents because they are not what they want. Although I really take me hard, but it is never enough. I can not seem to love my sister. It's not that I love her, but I can not stand. I know it's wrong. I was wrong. I think
are right when I say I'm selfish. Sometimes I talk to Alex, but her every time I liquid in two seconds by saying: "So you know that you're crazy."
I do not think my sister is crazy, otherwise would put in some institution. It's just ... difficult. I do not know.
Sometimes combining some casino and hope to die, it would be a liberation for all. But then I just feel horrible for having thought about it. She, somehow, part of me. Marisa
sensed that something is wrong, recently came up to me, sends me messages when I do not see or hear me not too long. She approached a lot even with Alexandra, maybe she told you something, I do not know. But I do not want
know, otherwise Marisa, who reasons already an adult, I would say the same things my parents, who are evil and selfish, I do not deserve anything.
At the end I love you too and I do not want to leave me. I do not want to feel even more alone. Marisa
once asked me if I do not like to have a boy, someone who is near me and loves me really. I do not want. I do not want someone who then promptly leave me just come into our confidence, I do not want someone else to tell me what I do, as I must be.
I'm fine by me.
Marianna has a boyfriend now, who is two years older than she, and our parents are very worried. They say it is still too young for these things.
My father never asked me if I have a girlfriend. Maybe he sensed something, or perhaps does not ask because they do not want to know.
Sometimes I want to say in the face to both of who are gay, so at least I have a reaction from them. That definitely send me to hell, at least leave me in peace.

Marianna came back to my room, they are furious! Back from the pool, I found my whole room upside down, mom and dad looking at me dark.
He opened all my condoms - those who had given me Marisa, with the logo Arcigay - rummaging through my things, my colors inverted making a mess.
I wanted to put me to scream, but did not succeed. I have seen my
condoms of course, but neither of them had the courage to comment or tell me anything.
I just said that from now on relock my room, that nobody should be allowed to touch my stuff and Maria do not have to bring their own!
I asked them all to go out and I started cleaning up that pigsty, to see if something was missing ... of course I could not find anything.
Think, you, dear Dario, you were finished in the wastepaper basket with two pages torn out, but fear not: I have put down with tape, will be a few 'battle scars like two.
Later my father came to me, I hoped I would speak, instead he just gave a pat on the shoulder and said: "It takes a lot of patience," then gave me one hundred euro to buy back the colors and recommended me to ask for more if I needed it.
I wanted to make him swallow his fucking money.
I'm not a whore for sale.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Frequency For All Indian Channels

I would say many things but they have all said they saw me

While the world is enjoying himself in that world of Lucca, which I'm the coolest and alternative and no money because I went to too many concerts, I am ALL ENVY ME LOVE YOU HAVE FUN TOO ç_ç universe world I spent the day at ' Electronics Expo
Bastia \\ o / Dad takes me around ever since electronics exhibitions I was a child, it's like a tradition E! ♥ ARE NOT HAPPY TO BE ALMOST WENT TO LUCCA WHY 'OMG OTHERWISE I WOULD NOT HAVE NEVER BOUGHT:
- a USB stick
piccolerrime of those type of an inch to two ♥ E' Puccia and loving and stylish, polished metal, 4 gig and I love it already. Bad that it heats up a lot, that shiny metal is dirty and has a lot open contacts and without protection, even if the guy who sold it to me said that obviously does not matter because according to him is superresistenteantiurtoyeah \\ o / For now I will reserve for the unimportant stuff, I hope rests in our hands: ° D € 10.
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a bag so cool AC / DC
♥ No, I do not know why I never sell bags of AC / DC at an electronics show. But over the years I have seen for sale all sorts of things that had nothing to do with anything, so I learned not to make me more questions \\ o / 10 €.
- THE CASE FOR THE NETBOOK FOR MONTHS THAT I HAVE TRIED EVERYWHERE ç_ç maximum emotion * I * I wanted one that opened fully on three sides, with the corners to keep elastichini on even while you work. But for netbook not found * drama * or found it too rigid, too cumbersome or absurd colors. I finally found the perfect one is black and very light and ç_ç appeeeeena a bit 'too small (probably for a 8-9''and not for a 10'') but really, who cares as long as you close \\ o / you can not understand HAVE A HAPPY WOMEN ♥ * wipes her tears * 5 €. - a new pair of headphones, as the last one I got did cagarissimo and I could not hear anything because the bass became a pops concert XD 5 €. - a travel charger for the iPod because I do not have ever had, I have always used the laptop or docking station for charging: O * * This old woman I've taken is obviously tarocchissimo, so for safety we have connected the old iPod and now see what happens \\ o / if it is already so nothing explodes \\ o / 3 €. - the DVD of The Prestige
♥ I liked a lot and I can not wait to regard \\ o / 6 €.
- a digital orologino those rubber bracelet but it proved to be an absolute fail, blink at random and do not hold a charge and probably tomorrow I'll throw it cost so much XD but a silly, so oh well XD € 2. - an assortment of black electrical equipment, because I have this setting will only black stuff in my room and my father is constantly 'attached to Cock, I am around the white and white to keep you E_e' XD We got a power strip with six individual switches to attack all the PC peripherals, plugs and a scart adapters or multiple of five that were always handy \\ o / * nerd * 12 €.
to the amazing total of € 53, we paid a half: D and then the bar had some very good tortillas with ham and we could not fight all day \\ o / (... not that we fight, in Actually, we caught a lot XD But my father is a man of love, but this trend has passive-aggressive that I hate, and so I end up on purpose to provoke XD and are a comical but in reality we adore ♥) In conclusion, LUCCA, MAKE ME A SEGA \\ o / tuuuuutto tell me, I want to know ç_ç denial * *